Josh's Pictures

I scroll through his pictures. Nothing but love. You can literally the goodness coming out of every single person. Friends, Past loves, Acquintances, all share one thing. GOODNESS. Somewhere over the rainbow, where there is a rainbow almost everyday. People are light and happy. The sun is shining, the weather is sweet...makes me wanna movem my dancin' feet. Camping, Beaching, Baby Showers and more. I miss being so close to that energy. Working sometimes over 40 hours a week, but being happier and having more fun then i ever had in my life. Yes, i am a dreamer. There is no reason not to do what you want. What makes you happy. It doesnt matter what others think. It's what makes you happy. I am blessed that I have a lot of things that make me happy. How i wish though i can fly around the world and hug each one of my friends. My wish will come true. You never know when you will see someone. There are so many people i never thought i'd see again, and somehow i have. Goodbye's aren't forever. Shoutouts to people that i think about more than i talk to, yet i know will always support me and be there for me. No particular order: Everyone in Maui  and especially:  Andy Tits Bergman, Ryan Fucker, Joshy Markuley, Chemmy baby my moon howler parner in crime, Is-ac-ac-ac and Laina, Shlomi-jewbitch, Laura Baby, CAZ-sistah, Miss Cynthia Bennet momma but really sister, All the GBG'S, My sister of course, Mattybaby, Matt coco sometime macadamia nutF. Smith, Rachel, Jen Meg, D. venus, Brandon in Baltimore, Pedro, My parents who will never read this. My nana who is not on earth, yet will read this. Uncle Whacky, My Twatlight girlfriend, Leebaby, Terry, Chasshole,  and everyone else who i am too tired to type. Thank you. I love you all and will always be there for you <3 Aloha

Dreams Do Come True

So i had that dream the other night, how i got on the wrong train and had no money to get back home. Today on my way home from the city, the lady on the train sitting next to me must have sensed something from me. She asked me if i was okay for no reason and asked if i needed any money. I told her no everything is good and that she was so sweet but i dont need any money. Money, what a waste. Over the past couple days i have felt a turn around in my spirit, i found my soulf again. Never in New York City, have I ever met so many nice people that were not in my scene. You get what you give off. Yesterday, a street kid needed to make a phonecall, and asked if he can use me or my friends phone. My friend said no, but i said yes, even though I have very few minutes and can't any till Friday. KARMA. Everything you put out and you want you get. A man let me cross the street the other day then happend to walk into a store right behind me, so i waited and held the door open for him. I numbed myself to the world and I am so happy to be back on this frequency. Ever since i started doing what i used to do, thanking the universe and being grateful nothing but good things continuesouly keep happening to me. I am a strong woman, and I am so proud of myself that I have gotton through all of this. I feel the maui magic in new jersey. I am who I am no matter where I go. So many people tell me I have such good energy, and that good energy is going to be within me no matter where in the world i am. Even if i am not in maui, the magic is still here. Somewhere over the rainbow.........thats where i am. A land of dreams and magic, thats what life is. Making your dreams come true. A guy told me last time that you have to dream in order to make it to come true. If you just do it, its not a dream. You have to wait for the wind to come under your arms before you can take off. I have so many special in my life. All over the world. Here in New Jersey, Out in the Maui Jungle, Europe, South America, Canada, Montana, California, Florida, Colorado. All over the world our love is united. THANK YOU. We are all one. The past couple of days after i get out of work my favorite childhood song keeps being played as I walk outside of work. Somewhere over the rainbow. In many different versions too. "If birds fly over the rainbow, why oh why can't I"? I AM. I AM.

The Wrong/Right Train

I was trying to get to Helaina's wedding, and i was such in a rush i hopped on the wrong train. The conductor said im sorry there is nothing we can do to stop it, you are going to deleware. I told her i only had 29 dollars to my name and that i had no way of getting back home. that this was all a mistake. i called my dad and he told me he had bonus travel points and tried to take care of things. i sat back on my cross country tour, somehow the train divertd to michigan. i saw the beautiful bold mountains, the hills moving like the a rollercoaster. i made a mistake. i got on the wrong train, yet i was still happy. It was what i needed. If i got on the train that took me to New Jersey I wouldn't have experienced all this beauty. I woke up so happy. The sun beating on my chest, my hand wrapped around your stone, hand on my heart. Sometimes you have to take the wrong train.