Mother Mother Love

At the end of my dream she told me i should go, the energy wasn't good for me anymore...

mother mother maui, you did the same

your land her skin
your ocean her water
your volcano her fury
your warmth her love

i now get it.
molded me and shaped me. cleansed me of my sins, missfortunes, wiped my memory away of all the bad
taught me to focus me on the good.
you have brought to my life, love

my eyes see clearer
my ears more alert
my sense of smell keener
and my heart full of love

your wind spoke to me
through the earth we connected
thunderstorms of chaos and peaceful summer days
connecting through love

my love for you is not like the love for she, the he for she and the she for he. my love for you is greater than any of these.

:) i hear you laughing

Two lost souls swimming in a fishbowl...

and i listen to that pink floyd song for the millionth time
and i've listended to it in all states of consciousness
different elevations of the mind
but you make it the highest
the tears in my eyes make the streetlamps look like stars
kalidascopes in the dark night
a light shines between us
its energy fueled by our fire
i never want to hear that song without you....
you are here....
we are just two lost souls swimming in a fishbowl....
year after year....together....
you are here
i love you

Black Swan

  Perfection- Clint Mansell

repressed emotions fly through a tree

like a phantom in the night sky

its cape blowing in the wind

fighting the current

like herds of sheep

trying to outsmart its takers

fueled by the fire

she lets go

and falls to her end

happy

with a smile on her face

a ballerina full of grace

black and white and white and black

Love is in the Air....

 Love is in the Air- John Paul Young
Sunshine for the first time in what seems like a year...
barefoot
i run to my swing...
the rays wrap its arms around me, make me feel warm...content....
it snows....wishflowers...
millions of hopes and dreams floating around the universe...
Love is In the Air
this will be the last snow i will see for months.....

Sunshine of my Life

The rays beat upon my skin for the first time since September....
it has been a cold cold winter, but you have kept me warm...
you have been my sun, the light brightening me....

the days have passed quickly
and the nights even quicker
smiles and laughs
tears of happiness

summer is just a moonbeam away
a wish on a shooting star..
my dreams came true
and the warm months aren't that far

el paradisio my paradise
my green green grass soaking up the weight of my body
your golden green eyes looking into mine
dreaming about the days ahead
forgetting about the days behind

the sun shines upon me, reminds me.....

<3

Spirals 3/21

 I am not a fan of this writing but i don't get rid of anything i write:

My Life is like those spirals i have drawn on my notebook for years....
spiraling in and out....

6 months ago my mom and my dad was in the hospital...
5 months ago i lost my job and went to boston
found out i got a new job the day i came home
5 months ago i was hanging out with the 187 crew

a few weeks ago....my mom and dad were in the hospital
i lost my job and went to boston
found out i got a new job the day i came home
and hung out with the 187 crew....

these intricate patterns seem to take theme to my life...
the same lessons are being taught over and over to me
it hurts my brain to even process the mathimatical calculations of this pattern that i can't even write anymore honestly.......

Love on Paper

From the minute i was able to put a pen in my hand i began to write her letters...
the letter i left her the day before she died was on her bedside...
probably one of the last things she ever read...
my love on paper....

tears drip unto my typing fingers and an easing sadness takes over my body...
words jumping in my head, a lump in my throat, my eyes blurry....

it breaks my heart to see this pain all around me
and with all the power i have, i can't do anything to control it.
out of
con trol
.chaos.

tsunami waves flood the shorelines wrecking years, decades, lives that have been
built. in one second. it was over.

and it breaks my heart to see all this pain around me
and with all this power i have, i can't do anything to control it....she is stronger; mother nature. the universe.
out of 
con trol
.chaos.

go with it. swim with the tides of the ocean and see where it takes you.
since you can't control it you might as well enjoy it.

but what do you do...my question is when not everyone is as happy as you?

a different pen, but the same heart....
in my letters i wrote out of love...
love from the very start.

Valentines Day Belation

Our new song stops playing as i click the video you made
February 14th. The hallmark day for love.
The day i was supposed to be back on a plane to Hawaii.
I canceled my ticket.
Giving up one paradise for another.
You masterfully edit the video of happy people, kissing smiling...
i was one of them.
Over a month ago i saw your video of the happy people
and wished i could be one of them.
wishes came true.
what you project is not your reality and my reality is what i project.
the negativity landed on the sands somewhere far on a deserted beach...
mother earth's waves pounding away the shoreline, washing it away.
destruction brings creation.
thank you moon god for bringing me the sun.

Thank you.

Heart BEATS

I can't sleep....for my heart beats in rhythm with his music. Magic was made. I watched as the bass started at his feet as the melody worked its way through his body. Staccato half beats pump the blood sending quarter and eighth notes floating through the bloodstream floating from limb to limb... The vibrations get deeper sending its energy over the crowd. Everyone moves as one- Because we are one. One giant atom affected by the musical energy. Hands rise and fall, doing the John Travolta, drinking a disco ball. Controlling the crowd from his creation station, like a god... I dance in tune with the melody. No questions asked, just going where the music takes me. Faith. Freeing my soul. As my body gets warmer I dance even harder and Love That Fever. My body lifted to another level. It’s as though I was dancing on air. 
 As I leave the venue the rhythm stays in my soul, my chakra necklace charged with positive energy. I finally notice my feet hurt, but I don't care as I walk down the streets of NYC peacefully with a smile on my face at 4:30am. One Love.

Source; A Life Changing Weekend

                                                            
  February 18-21st 2011, a weekend that will change your life. Discover things about yourself you never knew before and enter a spiritual awakening. Source is a non alcoholic multi-media art, music and healing festival that will be held on at Camp Keanae, on the exotic Keanae Penninsula.This festival wouldn't exist if it wasn't for you. This weekend is interactive, where everyone is a volunteer. Weather you want to help prepare dinner, welcome people at the gate, or help out with first aid, this is an event that can only go on when everyone participates.
 During the day there are a number of activities that you can partake in. Last year my life was changed from some of the things I was introduced to at Source such as; energy clearing, living sustainable, traditional Hawaiian healing and more. From dance, to yoga, hoola hooping or even learning how to spin poi, there is something to do all day. And if you are feeling like you just need to relax, you can choose to lounge out on the grass lawn and overlook the ocean. 
 At night, there will be several events that you can watch or partake in. If you ever dreamed of singing in front of a crowd, or have a special talent you would like to show off, this is definitely the place. The talent show is a perfect time to show off your skills and feel comfortable while doing so. The night time activity that I am most looking forward to is put on by Next Level Theater Productions and Merkabah Fire Productions. It is called, "Crossroads of Light" a Romeo and Juliet type of story shown in a backlight theatre.
Of course there is nothing more artistic than dancing. You can guarantee that you can dance all day and all night. To keep the noise down for the neighbors there will be a "Silent Rave". Where you actually get to wear headsets to hear the DJ!
If your mind and yourself is looking for a mid- winter mini vacation. Source is the place to go. You will discover things about yourself you never knew, and meet people who will change your life. So, Share Openly, Ur Creative Expressions. To buy tickets and more details visit : http://sourcemaui.com/

                                                      

Reda Briki Loves That Fever!

  The first time I heard his sound, I had a smile on my face and vibration in my gut. His magic connected me to the rhythm as I continued to smile. Coincidentally, I wrote this before I interviewed him on the phone and one of the last things he said to me was, “I like my music to take people somewhere, leave them inspired… make people smile”. He certainly achieved his goal!

 Reda Briki is the Resident DJ for Disorient, a sound camp for Burning Man and around the world. He is playing next Friday, February 4, 2011 at Love That Fever’s “Gold & Glitter” Party at Rebel in NYC. Reda has a French-Algerian background which deeply connects him to the drums. He is very unique in the way he puts together exotic drums from places like Egypt and Algeria with the horns of Miles Davis and strings of George Benson.

 Reda loves to travel and discover new music, along with playing and delivering a positive message world-wide. Reda has played at Burning Man, and in places such as Monaco, LA, and is even going to be playing in Egypt at the Transahara Festival this year! He says his favorite places that he has played was San Francisco, Argentina and of course the NY community.

 Reda believes and succeeds in the fact that music should inspire people; move them emotionally by telling a story. Without people on the dance floor, he wouldn’t be able to play. “The people are my music”, says Reda. As I type this I am listening to his newest track “Love That Fever” and literally dancing in my seat. Hopefully he will be playing it next Friday!

 There are some musicians who studied for years and may be logistically correct in their sound but do nothing for your soul. There are some who are so talented that they take you to another place and that is Reda Briki. So, come warm up, forget about your problems and get ready to get moved (literally) at the Gold and Glitter party next Friday presented by Love That Fever. For more events check out:

http://www.redabriki.com/
http://www.lovethatfever.com/

Burn :)

"Your on the verge of some cosmic shit" shlomi said about a year ago.....
everyone agreed...
they were right,
i felt it. they saw it.

Sage, Bassnectar, Hoola Hooping, Full moon, Palo Santo, Dubstep, Love, Meditation, Yoga, Expanding my Mind, Getting Dirty, Loving being Dirty, Hitch Hiking, David Starfire, Dancing past the sunrise, Connections, Sharing, Caring, One Love, Dreadlocks, Braids of String, Feeling the Bass, Watching the Burn, Helping, Beautiful People, Healing, Talking, Painting, Coloring, Drawing, Holding Hands, Feeling the Energy, Seeing the Energy, Sharing the Energy, Vibrations across the nations take me to the next Airport Station.

I was in so deep...
 thousands of feet under the water of love that i didnt even realize what was going on....
I had to come home to really see what i learned, who i am.
Beautiful.
Mucho Mahalos.
Emersed in a community where people are like me, we can be carefree, share, love, and be in unity.
Thank you <3

P.S- This came on as i was finishing up writing this...
Bassnectar- Magical World

Time of your Life

Time of your Life

September 20, 2010 i wrote about how i want to make a difference.
The only way to make a difference is to change.
"I don't want to work a nine to five"
be in the same miserable compfort ruitine everyday of my life
till i'm so old i get to retire but i'm too old to do what i want.
It all hit me last night talking to Ryan and watching the end
of Seinfeld with the song "Time of your Life" by Greenday in the background.
Another turning point a fork stuck in the road, time grabs you by the wrists directs you where to go
He told me i couln't plan things i just ned to go with my feelings. He still has the spirit in him.
I had this elaborate master plan of what was going to happen. But, he was right...
my plan was foiled. I have always known what i want, I have felt it for the past year.
The universe keeps pointing me there, so i am going to go with my feelings.
I am going to go with my feelings.
Jumping from compfort zone to compfort-zone, pacific time zone, to eastern time zone won't get me anywhere.
When you know nothing, you are at your prime to learn.
This is the best oppertunity that has been given to me.
Being confused can be good.
I close my eyes and let my heart guide the way....
the way to my dreams....and my reality.....*

Some people are just idiots

I may be blonde...but i am far from dumb....

I am usually a very positive peaceful person, but over the past couple days i have ran across a bunch of morons. I even hate talking so negatively, but this time its the truth.
I find myself being able to make peace with mostly everyone, but how do you make peace with someone that JUST doesnt GET IT?

I'll start foward and work my way back.
I'd like to thanks Citi Bank for holding my money hostage.
Because apparenlty since i am a new customer and they want to establish a
"RELATIONSHIP"
with me.........they have to hold my money for 9 days after a deposit it, even though
i have enough money to cover the check.
Next, I'd like to say thanks to the company I called who I have an appointment with on Thursday.
I forgot my appointment time, and the lady yelled at me on the phone, because she couldnt find it in her datebase it was apparently my fault i lost the paper and the time can't be found. thank you state of new freaking jersey.
Thirdly I'd like to say thanks a number of douchebag boys. Once again, I am not dumb. I can't tell you how many people I have gotton in a fight with and stopped talking to this week.
Fourth, that person that stepped on their breaks to early last week while i was in the car with my dad.
Fifth, I'd like to thank all the good people who have stuck by my side no matter what. :)
I love you guys <3
My energies need to be focused on the positive in order to make everything around me positive. The funny part is that i have felt happy and good, despite me being sick. I am excited for the future and the past.
Tonight i will meditate, fung shui my room, and cleanse.
Rawr!