Purity

"All things created perish" He who knows and sees this becomes passive in pain. This is the way to purity"  -DhammapadaFinally.
a finale....with a sneak preview ahead.
i still will do what i do when i do how i do.
i always knew, thats why i forgave you
actions speak louder than words
a woman's intution, silly superstition.
we share the same dreams but fight different battles
swimming against the current like a school of fish.
we are all one.
united we stand, devided we fall.
fall. one of the most beautiful times of years.
it always happens this time of year, repeatedly repeated. the cycle.
i moved on last month with high hopes in my heart putting blinders on my eyes,
maybe i should have looked harder.
i have 20/20 vision today.
text messages, im's, smiles across barnes and noble, e mails from strangers, accidently bumping into me at the bar, late night phone calls, groping, whistles, skin touching, tounges tasting. i can't be bothered.
i am busy, don't you know?
and thats where we are the same. we are so busy, looking out for our best interest.
thats why i moved, thats why you moved. to make our lives happen.
focus. focus. focus. clear your fucking mind.
i hope you read this. i hope you all awaken.
i want to reach the state of nirvana, because once you do nothing can take you away. barnes and noble today i read the teachings of buddah, hoped a hot guy would sit next to me
and he did. the law of attraction. him hitting on me was good enough. i couldn't be bothered.
i had to do some self improvement.
constanlty on the move over the last few years, taking 4 months out of the years purposely working
and working and working away.
* not caring about anything but one of my favorite forms of green to take me away on a new adventure.*
not getting the chance to know anyone, and letting the ones i do know go.
such is life. i am sorry. like i said my selfishness is my selflessness, in my perception.
perhaps i self distruct. a time bomb ticking away. delibriting making myself happy, and ruining it.
i thrive on emotion. my words are emotion and passion.
i love love. i love you. i dont care. im not ashamed. these ups and downs.
this roller coaster ride is making me want to puke.
butterflies in my stomache flutter till i meditate them out of my mouth, throwing up the wings splattering the walls.
then the quiet before the storm.
the storm hits
distruction and devistation.
we come together.
and start again.
and that is it.
i think i found the answer.

My Favorite Quotes from my Readings Today by the Dhammapada Teachings of Buddah:

"Victory breeds hatred, for the conquered is unhappy. He who has given up both victory and defeat, the contended is happy"

"From greed comes grief, from greed comes fear, he who is free from greed knows neither grief nor fear"

"The fields are damged by weeds, mankind is damaged by passion, hatred, vanity and lust. Therefor a gift bestowed on those who are free brings great reward"