Half my life ago...and i Knew

We raced home from school and i played my answering machine, "Sarah......i love you".  "How would your mom feel if she heard these messages?" she said. "I don't care", i replied with a grr in my voice. She was just jealous i thought in my head, 14 years ago. I was 14, he was 18. Scandelous now that i come to think about it. Its funny after a certain point how age doesnt matter. "You are living in a fantasy" she said to me. "Maybe I am, but I like it". 14 years later i still I am...living in this fantasy. It's called life. And you can dream it to be all you want and more, and may all your dreams come true. You are what you make it. You are your actions, words, meaning, soul, feelings, heart beating blood through the body in rythem to the waves of the ocean, breathe in....breathe out....long breaths....hold it in. let it go....feel your consciousness open and your mind expand. you are swimming in a bath of warm ocean water. The Venus pools; Maui; Love. Venus is the god of love. How about that?

5:12pm
   I walk out of the mall with the biggest smile on my face. I am capable of anything. At the other side of the crosswalk waits a limo. Like a Rainbow to a pot of gold. My gut feeling is one day that limo will be for me. As I begin to walk home, I see the sun setting behind the lake. The "water fowl" are singing some song i never heard before, and it draws me in. Tears of happiness drip down my face as i watch the sun go down, as i pass it to you across the world. I pray that you will feel the joy i am experience now and you see the same rainbow off the reflection of my happines.I stand on the bridge and get lost in the water. Watching its tides move west. How i'd give anything to jump in that lake and go where it takes me. I see a man feeding the ducks, he walks the only the white duck to the water. An angel. It paciently waits and a couple of ducks join it. They start bobbing their heads under wear, creating a circle pattern, that gets bigger and bigger and bigger. 5 ducks, once circle. "Listen to your heart......" some of the words get drowned out by the noise of the traffic on 27.... " I dont know where your going and i don't know why...but Listen to your heart" Sometimes i feel that there is someone following me, playing the soundtrack to my life. As i hear the words that i was just thinking.....